February 20, 2016

I started the day feeling like the usual, hungry after waking up, grabbed salted bread and coffee and ate while still lying in bed.
Checked my phone to see if he left a message for me. (I was upset last night because I wasn't able to chat with him, offline as usual) And found out that Smart again disconnected my Wi-Fi connection, (800mb allocation in a day is BS!) the good thing was the movie I was trying to download before I went to sleep last night is already available to watch. But then I saw my youngest daughter who's stubborn, weak and sickly due to cough for 5 days now and decided to take care of my child first and drop whatever I'm doing with my phone.

Cooked beef stew for lunch then took a bath before eating. At last I got a message from him saying that he's not feeling well (BTW, he managed to send me a message about past 7 am in the morning saying "good morning") so as someone genuinely concerned, I told him to take meds, rest, increase fluid intake, go home because he's at work, etc. etc. Took a glimpse of my family's Facebook posts about their vacation stay in Boracay and I can't help but to question my dad's favoritism and felt a bit envious (we don't have any sibling rivalries, this is an issue that I have only to myself, I love my family and kids so much)

My sick daughter's fever raised at about 5 pm today and it breaks my heart seeing her weak and can't almost breathe because of cough. Fever eventually went low after doing a steam, giving paracetamol and a short massage. If only I can take all the pain that she's feeling.

We had conversations about immortality, humanity, religion and politics. These are the topics that I don't usually wanna talk about because its about personal belief and opinion, this is what we like about each other, sensible talks. But I decided to cut the topic about humanity and views about religion because of its sensitivity level. (I can no longer discuss it with him because I don't want him to get
offended if ever I would say something not nice about what he believes in)

I must admit, we've been chatting for a few weeks now and I feel interested whenever I'm talking to him (probably because I find him sensible) I really don't have any idea where this can lead us to but I'm hoping that it will be somewhere that we can both be happy.

I decided to create a new blog today about my personal views and goals. Which is where you're at right now. This is a private blog and looking forward to make it available for public reading.

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